How can you lose something you never had to begin with? Now i too am unclear if i even have it now. One thing's for sure. I fear losing her. So bad. So bad it cuts. Like a thin razor slicing through my fragile surface exposing my flesh as I gleem at the sight of the essence of my life flowing out of the fine laceration.

For awhile, life seemed to have a direction. I tread softly on broken glass. Wash my face with the pieces of the broken mirror that lies before me.

Cut me deep.

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