Another day has passed. The further i'm from my surreal overseas experience, the deeper my heart longs for it. Had a huge fight with my mom over it too. Silly woman refuses to admit we're strapped for cash. Pride will eat her alive.

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I remember.

Nostalgia set in when i picked up myold alternative records and blasted myself silly today. So emo. So utterly secondary school. Argh.. i wish Smashing Pumpkins didn't disband. Those guys literally took me thru my 4 years. I guess good things never last.

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Almost there.

Half the week's gone. All downhill from here now. Funny how as we grow older and more able to fufil our dreams, the more we lose sight of it. I have utterly no idea what i really wanna do now and for the life of me i've no idea what i wanted do. Everything seems so vague. Jaded by life i guess.

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I miss myself.

I miss the days where i could just lie in bed and daydream of what i wanted to be when i grew up, completely immersed in those alt/emo tracks. Guess we all have to grow up someday huh? I'm not gonna, if growing up means losing all those dreams i hold dear to me.

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Stuff for me.

I hate the flu bug. It never fails to get me irate. My nose feels like nigara falls. Anyways, Payday's this Friday!! Yippee! Gotta list of stuff that i would probably blow it on:

1) CDs (when was the last time you bought one? Emo/Alt ones of course to suit my nostalgia)

2) Window shopping for kewl clothes and shoesies! and oh yeah.. a bag too. Someone nicked my crumpler. Bah.. you can keep it. Bleah.

3) That Technics bag that i just can't get outta my mind.

Fuck. I'm gonna be broke again. Uh huh.. so much for saving money for aussie, but then again, what aussie?

'Nuff said.

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Tunes for the day:

1) Deep Inside of You - Third Eye Blind

2) How's It Gonna Be - Third Eye Blind

3) Losing a Whole Year - Third Eye Blind

4) Again I Go Unnoticed - Dashboard Confessionals

then&now