Had a pretty swell trip over the weekend. We had so much plans and well, not that they did screw up, but it's not as if it happened either.

Well we did win some cash at the casinos, which was meant for our party trip down at KL, which eventually went back to the casinos cos it was raining so heavy we couldn't get a cabby to drive us down and back up. But we lived like kings for a day. Not complaining on that fact tho!

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Jeepers Creepers!:

Whilst over there, the guys dragged me along into this sleazy makeshift RnB thingy. (God Save Me) Bad enough it was sooo sleazy they couldn't even serve me my beer in a glass so i had to sip it from a can, talk about back to basics. Then the place was sooo filled with sleazy people, everyone seemed to be groping and grabbing everyone else! Jeepers creepers! Utterly disgusting! Then to make the night perfect, someone from behind was friggin rubbing my ass and i turned around only to see a lady as old as my friggin aunt smiling at me. I made like the wind and doubled outta that joint and back into the sleaze of my pathetic excuse for a hotel room to whine about how much fun we could've had if we were at KL then. Happy thoughts.. Think happy thoughts...

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Too Long a Bus Ride:

I hate long bus rides, not for what they are, but for what they set us doing. Too much time for thoughts and reflections. Reviewed every inch of my life over and over till i was so sick of it.

It's really kinda freaky, I look at the people around me and i see where they're headed. "Oh that's him, he's sooo gonna be a techinician and settle for his life; and that's her, now, she's gonna make it big someday, that i know." But when i glance and think, i seriously couldn't see anything for myself. Yeah so i've got this and that, but i'm certainly not going big places with that, at least not where i wanna go. That kinda shit really freaks me out.

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He Had To Do It..:

As hard as it was, it had to be placed behind. I thought the trip was a perfect chance to shed that skin. First thing that greeted me was E asking again. He just had to. Gotta get past it. I know i have, now people, you should learn to deal with it. If i could, you can. Deal with it for fuck's sake.

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A Rush of Blood:

I got home to a pleasant surprise. My application was thru! I did it! For once in my life, I felt like I did something. Well yes, any monkey could've gotten in, but not this monkey. It means a deal to me to have something you want placed this close in your face. All I know is, I'm fucking relieved. Now, to deal with the cash stress. I'll casually just fuck that for now. Yeah, that's it. Just fuck that for now.

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She:

She hasn't updated her blog in ages, not like she did regularly ever since she left. But i think i've read that blog over and over and over and over so many times i've lost count. Her words, my inspiration, my canvas incomplete. A stale mail still resides, too numb to answer, too feared to touched the keys. No more such nonsense, No more such feelings. Past it shall be.

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This One's for D.:

Thanks for being the best bud i coul've asked for and more. Seems you read me well, altogether too well. Bus rides await your return, buds for life.

Another emo weekend again.

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Tunes For The Ride:

Plumb - World's Collide: A Fairy Tale

Plumb - Lie Low

Longing for another smile,

Rome

You didn't care about me // So i packed my bags // And left you to wonder // What you could've done better // To make our love stronger // We could have lasted forever and longer // But we'll never know how good it could be // This isn't how it should be

I couldn't laugh // I couldn't cry // I couldn't waste another day // I couldn't live // I couldn't lie low any longer

then&now