Spirit talking at 3am
2003-12-12 @ 3:00 a.m.

I fear.

The fear eats me from within, the fear that someday i may lose you turns that day into everyday. Turns my nightmares into reality, turns our worries into physicality.

As each step we grow closer the more we fear losing each other.

Come feb we meet our biggest fear.

Half a year apart. We both fear that day at the airport, we both know the distance between us and we both fear. Fearing together, is it suppposed to be comforting or au contraie?

I know reassurance is the key, but we all know that nothing can replace the physical being, so i barely try to. She knows deep within i would give my left leg to make it all better but i can't.

Melancholly deep within. Or is it the spirits i consumed that talk?

Whichever the case, it doesn't really change things much.

then&now
last five:
End - 2005-12-22
2005 NASS AWARDS - 2005-11-22
Sweetest Downfall - 2005-11-19
Last Wish - 2005-11-14
Lost In Synthetics - 2004-11-17